| THE GUILT! Wednesday, 11 June 2014 • 06:52 • 0 comments so, i was reading in the library, my service is still not here and the library was quiet as hell. but i had books to read that kept my imagination flowing. i can still hear the clock ticking...utill now (litteraly). my teacher broke the silence by asking me to get a cutter at the faculty room, of course a little walk wouldn't hurt! or will it  .so, when i got there teacher rachel didn't have the cutter...*sigh*.... well, looks like teacher is gonna ask me to get the cutter again this time from another teacher..probably from high school! which means i get plenty more exercise! ..YAY (sarcasm) maybe i shouldn't be that over joyed because a few second later.... i was going to open the door when suddenly BANG!! some kids who were running hit the door that i just opened!! (WHY THE GREAT TIMING UNIVERSE!!??) then i quickly went outside  and saw a kid lying on the ground... CRYING!! i kept on saying sorry MULTIPLE times! then the teachers went out to take a look... i examined the door when they came out...oh! there was no teeth stuck to it! thats good! but i examined it closely and saw a smear of red... Probably just a faint red painting right? but it looked fresh.......at that exact moment the teachers removed his hand from covering a part of his face...THERE WAS BLOOD!! a lot of it coming from either his fore head or the eye! the teachers were flipping out when they say all that blood and took him to the emergency clinic! or well should i just say a normal clinic that doesn't go through this kind of bad situations!! i walked to the clinic, acting like nothing happened! then i just didn't go in and just sat on the floor. then my friend kian asked me what was going on. i told her... she was like doing the "oh your in trouble" hand style. when you point out your index finger and wave it towards your friend and backwards repeatedly. my eyes widened feeling all the guilt! i was totally whimpering! what if my parents get sent into the principals office for payment!!?? they would kill me!! and bann me from ANYTHING!!! then kian left, i was only waiting for my service and waited in the library! maybe i shouldn't have gone to the library!! that way i wouldn't have done anything! and everything will be normal. then one of the teachers came to me i was guessing to hear "i've called your parents and you are in big trouble!" but she said "its not your fault! i saw you! you didn't open the door strong, it was just because of those kids running!" then i felt a tiny beam of happiness. "is he gonna be alright?" i asked "yes, he was brought to the hospital though" she said and walked away. GOT TO THE HOSPITAL!!?? NOW MY PARENTS ARE GONNA KILL ME FOR REALS!! then my service FINALLY CAME!! :) but i wasn't so happy when i got home. i told mommy and papa what happened. and they told me i did nothing wrong!! :D YAY!!! (this time not sarcasm). i will never go to the library again! instead i will just borrow books and read outside! :) but i still feel the guilt. i never heard from that kid again! :( if we met.. what he would say: what i had in my mind: |   Hi! this is bea and i love making people laugh, as you can see i love pigs and pink... also food. i love getting scared and i like making people scared. i tell stories to kids that are really scary. when they start to cry i just stop talking and turn on the lights :l i still feel guilty until now |
